I had the idea of someone shooting themselves in the head, but having failed to kill themselves with the first shot, they laugh at the irony and smile through bloody lips as they pull the trigger again. They'd die after the second shot.
But I wonder if after the first shot they became scared that they might actually continue to live unless they shot themselves in the head again. What if you lived after shooting yourself in the head? That must be the ultimate tragedy, a failed suicide.
I can see his smile, its more crooked then curved. His left cheek raised, some blood from an unnamed artery drips down from the right side of his mouth. His eyes are tired, the left dispairing, the right anguished. Therein the only explanation for the deed.
The one thing he has ever resolved to do, he's failed miserably at. He found no purpose in life, no meaning, no reason to stay or make anything of it. The only way he's going down in the Book of Books is as the guy who shot himself in the head, twice. Thats all we'll remember, but does it really matter?
